I still hug all my kids every night and I always have. Kyle was so soft hearted and was not afraid to show his feelings. He was 14 and I still kissed him goodnight every night. Hell, if I did not hit him on the lips, he would call for a "redo". That probably sounds crazy to some of you, but that the kind of wonderful kid he was. I have a 1000 little memories like that of him. Thinking of them is the only thing getting me 1/2 way through these absolutly gut- wrenching times.