I am trying to. I still have 4 other children, but they are growing up, with one married and another getting married this summer. We all handle Kyles death in a different way. I still trade, buy, and shoot lots of guns. I lost my twin brother 5 months ago to cancer and we were extremely close even for twins. So it has been a rough patch of time for us. We will make it though. I still love God and know that they are both in a better place. I just hope to join them someday when my time arrives. Still does not keep you from missing them like crazy down here. My wife and I lean on each other a lot during the rough times. I realize that life goes on and you have to do the best you can to handle things. So we keep trying, but it is a constant battle.